Posted on April 10 2019
Welcome back everyone! I actually remembered that today is Wednesday and I am absolutely claiming that victory, and not because I spent half the day yesterday reassuring myself that it was Tuesday and not Wednesday. There’s nothing like being off of everyone else’s schedule to make you really appreciate that time really is a construct of our own making.
This week’s blog post has both a super exciting thing and a not so great thing. If you’re not a bad news first kind of person just skip to the bottom and I’ll get to the good stuff. The bad news is I think I feel a rut coming on and not just a knitting rut, a makers rut. I have no idea where it came from. I have a few super cool projects pending and while I was excited to prep for them, all of that energy has sort of…. Deflated.
I know the headaches are part of the problem and so is the crazy eye pain and all of the other symptoms but at the back of all of that stuff is this nagging little question: to what end? Why am I doing all of this? It kind of just feels like I’m occupying time until somethinghappens. I don’t know what that something is though. Now that I’m putting it on paper, maybe it’s not a rut, maybe it’s just an existential crisis. That’s what wine is for right? Maybe I’ll try that and let you know how it goes.